So I Just Signed Up for a Half Marathon

So just about thirty seconds ago I signed up for the Lake Minnetonka Half Marathon on May 2nd, so whoever is back should join me or at least cheer me on! I can't believe I did that, but I guess it is the part of me that is trying to be more spontaneous this year.

Other than that things have been pretty tame here. The other night half price apps were super fun. We had a group of nine people, which is pretty huge if you think about what it was last year. Friday night I had to babysit and I made seventy dollars for five hours! But I wanted to go to the comedy thing at Coffman, but I didn't get done in time, but Jackie, Alex, Sam, and Cal went. Once they were done with that I met Sam and Cal back at their apartment and Cal and I played cards while Sam emailed Danielle. So far there is nothing going on tonight, so I guess I should get on that and plan something, but what is there to do....maybe I will go to exploreminnesota.com and see if there are any good ideas...maybe the winter carnival? I have no idea. All I know is that I am sick of being in my apartment and just want to get out and enjoy life.

Also, a side note, I have decided that there will be no more consumption of alcohol in my life. I just don't like how I feel and I work out hard during the week and I don't want it to go against that. AND I have way more fun having an energy drink and I feel just as buzzed, but there is no hangover or regretting things that I have done.

Another side note, I think I am going to shadow Mike to one of his IT classes to see what the IT guys are like because I am so bored with my life right now. Now don't get me wrong I love the friends and things that have been going on, but I also want something more to fill in my life. My life has never been about school and for me to have the thought that this semester in the times I am not with my friends I could study does not sound like something that I want. My mom laughed when I told her about going out and finding an IT guy, I am so sure she thinks I am crazy too, but I want a guy who I don't have to compete with for school, grades, and a job and an IT guy is also smarter than me, which I like that idea and they can build stuff! Anyways nothing like that will probably happen, but my life is boring with school and the typical stuff and I am just looking for ways to entertain myself.

I think that I have made the decision to go to Cali this summer. First of all because I can get a good paying internship out there, the weather is super nice, I can possibly do the San Fran Marathon's half marathon, and I can join the running club every wed night and if I run one hundred miles I get a free t-shirt. I feel like also as hard as I have been fighting it, my life is moving out there. I really don't want to work in MN as much as I love the snow, but northern California's economy is so much better and I can drive to my favorite place on Earth, Lake Tahoe. The more I sit here and type the more that becomes something I want to do....hmmmm. The people out there are super nice too and they aren't fake about getting to know you and people are more active, which is something I like. I also like being up in the hills and having amazing views and people being more relaxed. Sounds like that is my plan for the summer, I am moving out there! I like it... I have no reason for staying here, so why not.

Sweet, well now that I have a goal for May and a plan for summer I feel set! And i need to go work out! Hope everyone else is having a successful and fun time abroad!

First Few Days Back in the Rush

So, yesterday school started again and I could not believe how much I got done before noon. Now it doesn't beat what Kari did before then, but I still impressed myself. I was showered, on the road, had checked facebook and this blog, and had eaten breakfast. I can't believe I could do all that before noon!

Classes: I got to Carlson and it I was early, so I decided to grab a daily and sit somewhere. I looked around for people I recognized and saw no one which made me miss all you guys abroad. Marketing was the first class I had and I thought it was going to be awful because I didn't know anyone, but I ended up recognizing a girl I met this past weekend and it was super fun sitting by her and chatting. The prof didn't let us out early (who does that on the first day) then it was off to HR. Kari and I somehow missed the fact that Tanya, Kari, and I all have that class together along with Liz, Lauren, and a girl from my past IDSc class. Sid let us out early so Kari and I went back to her place where I chatted with Jackie before she left and eventually Kysa was there too so we all got to talk. Then it was mangement.....that is going to be the hell whole of the semester. Who the crap makes powerpoints and then doesn't put them online. Why would you do all that work and have everyone in the class not get anything out of it and we totally can't listen to the stuff coming out of his mouth. Sometimes old people make me wonder.

I my way home I talked to my dad and Mike while yelling at people who were going 25 in a 25 who the hell does that at least go thirty please. Ya know this is one thing I like about California, people drive with the flow of traffic not what the speed limits are. If people did this in Minnesota then there would be less traffic backups cause by people being the traffic police and less accidents.

Once I got home and figured Heath Ledger did die, I went to lifetime during the biggest loser. I was able to run a mile at 7 min and 2 sec consistantly for seven miles and during my cool down my heart rate dropped twenty points in two min. Sorry I know most of you don't care, but I am very proud of myself. Oh and for dinner I had a Kashi tv dinner holy crap those are made by god I swear! They are so good and good for you!

Today I have stats (boo), but that is it and Kysa, Kari and I are trying to get peps together for half pricers tonight, but it might just be the three of us, so that would be fun to catch up. Oh and the other night when hanging out at Marcy Park, Sam and Zeke yelled at Kari and I for talking girl talk. Get this we were only talking about jeans for like a min, so us girls have been dominated this semseter and have to find time else where to talk I guess lol. Today feels like a friday I absolutly hate that! Its only wed. Maybe its just this school thing and I want it to be the weekend. Well, this one wasn't as thought provoking as my past one, but I hope it gives everyone an idea of what is going on and I need to go workout before class. Have fun in your respective countries!

Getting Old

So over the last few days it has kind of hit me that we all are getting older and it has kind of freaked me out. I wish that everyone would just stand still because as everyone else is moving forward I feel as if I am being left behind.



It hit me that everyone has so much figured out in their lives and I barely know what the hell I am doing. Its like I am starting to feel like everyone's younger sister who doesn't have a clue what the heck is going on. I realized that I have no idea what I am going to do with my major and I have come to the conclusion that I doubt I will use my major in whatever job I have because I am totally not into the corporate scene. Everyone else is like this is what I am doing and this is where I am going to be and I am sitting here wondering what is going to happen in this year and trying to figure out where my life is going. I think it is kind of hitting my that I no longer have a plan in my head of what will be because I think I have realized that there is no way to plan, but without a plan I feel really vulnerable and out of control.



Yesterday and right now I am lounging in my robe from last year and have been on my computer or reading a book during the day and that makes me feel like a thirty-five year old who just is moving through life and not enjoying it. I just want to have fun and not have the feeling that I need to be stressed out because how fun is life if you have stress and are not having fun. This probably contributes to the fact that I don't have a plan, so I guess it is a crazy circle.



I feel like everyone close to me has everything all figured out some to the point of being married and having a baby and others just realizing that they are dating the one they are going to be with for a really long time. This freaks me out because there is no way in hell that I want to be in something so serious. There is no way that I could deal with all the bullshit that goes along with a serious relationship, I just want to have fun and be happy and not have someone bring me down. There is no way that I could be married or even think about marriage like that is one thing I can live without as long as I am not alone forever. This could mean living with a good friend who is also not married or just having a boyfriend forever. I wouldn't like someone being in my space twenty four seven they would have to travel a bit or live not with me but come over a bit. I sound like a mess but it is cool to get this all out.



Right now when I look into the future on how I see my life in like ten years and right now I just see myself doing my things and not having a guy at my side everyday because I really don't need that. I see myself buying a house and having a fun fufilling time living in my twenties. I really don't want to deal with the bullshit and heart ache that comes with being committed to the person, like don't get me wrong if i were dating someone I would be committed, but not like throwing them into my life, I need some me time too. As much as I enjoy having someone around to keep me busy am I really going to find the person who makes me want to settle down and is there really a person who would want to pack up and go winter camping or go for a hike or just randomly take off and do something that is semiathletic and outdoors. And when I am really close to someone I take on their problems which totally just adds stress to my life and I really don't want to worry about that. So clearly I am at the point in my life where I just don't want to deal with crap from other people.



WoW I sound bitter about relationships in general, but maybe that is because I am feeling totally betrayed by some of my closest allies. Maybe that is all a part of growing up and having the people around you leave you for the ones they love and if you don't have someone like that you feel left behind and lonely.



Oh well!

PS

So i forgot to tell everyone that Kelley and I should have been the writers for the Nickelback song "Rockstar" because the lyrics that we thought of were way cooler than the actual lyrics so take that

My amazing Journey going nowhere

I am starting this because you know what everyone else needs to know what is going on here in good ole minnesota while they are away. This way I don't have to answer the same questions just kidding you will probably have to ask because this is going to be more of a thing I do when I am bored.

"CAAAALLLLLLLLL i need you to fix my computer!"

So I am bored sitting in my dining room talking to Kelley on Skype and we came up with the idea to start blogs. Recently, I painted my living room and rearranged the furniture, so that wasted about two days worth of my time. Oh and Jessie had her baby which is like the cutest thing on Earth and is super sweet, but it made me decided that i am not having a baby ever, unless my husband reallly reallllly wants one, but if he doesn't care I am buying one which is really what adoption is.

Never mind I fixed my computer it was being an ass.

I hope that next semester will be super fun and random, so I will keep everyone posted and i hope you all have fun in different countries and I promise this will not be as crazy as this first one! GO PACKERS