I Can't Say No

Hey GUYS!!! What a crazy week, I am warning you I am watching this while watching America’s Next Top Model from last week, so if I don’t make sense while writing (although then it will just sound like I am talking). What do you think New Yorkers think when they see all the TV shows being shot on the street. I learned something about this week, I can't say no. I have never been able to say no because I always feel bad when I say no because I know that it is probably something I can do. There has only been one guy that I have dated that I wanted to date and the rest it was just because I felt bad because they put so much effort into me that I felt that I couldn't say no. Also, I feel like with other things when people ask me to do something and I have the ability I will say yes, this doesnt mean that I want to. I guess once you know me there is a huge difference between my yeses there are some where I am like sure whatever and then there are some where I am jazzed. That is not good, but it will probably never be changed.

Well here is my week (oh and sorry for the drunken facebook posts again)

Monday- hmm class, crap I made a promise to myself that I would remember but now I can’t, oh yeah I put RAM in my computer (Cal would be proud) and it works amazingly well.

Tuesday- I am so sorry this was a crazy week and all I remember is class, oh and Kari and I had lunch with Mike W. at Bleecker Street.

Wed- I went to school early to meet Sam to get the case study and ran into Clark at the same time. Clark and I had a very interesting conversation where I felt a bit attacked, but oh well (oh my gosh there is a show on the CW called farmer wants a wife and the farmer is hot and I would marry him in an instant we could have my cows!!). Then it was class and then I went to Comstock to chill until the group was going to meet for the case, and in the mean time I hung out with Mike and Anna. Gosh what a cute couple, I adore Anna and she is that perfect balance for Mike (I sound like an old lady). The three of us had dinner and had a great time then it was off to Carlson for a night of hell. Sam, Mike, Andy and I worked on the case until super late and we got a ton done and we had fun and decided to fire sue that bitch and there were defiantly some fun times. When I got home at about 2 Sara was still up and I was like see ya I am going to pass out now. I could not fall asleep because all I could think about is lead times and how to fix them.

Thursday- Woke up and felt like death, well not really, but I felt exhausted because I was still not over being tired from the weekend. Class was interesting I guess, nothing special. After my morning class I went to Chipotle to meet the guy from last weekend. The lunch went great and yes I was able to eat Chipotle while still managing to look cute (which I was asking everyone how to do). We will see what happens, I will keep you guys posted I dunno we will see. Then it was back to class for the boring part of the day, I was having a super hard time staying awake. But in HR it was time for evaluations and man I went to town on Sid and it felt damn good. During management Cedric and I decided to leave early because I had to meet Sam and he and the rest of those guys had to go look at a house. Sam, Andy and I went to dinner at Panino’s and had a blast, it was cool to finally get to know Andy rather than just working in class or on this case with him. The case sucked and we were going crazy by three am and when four am rolled around we realized we had crap, so we tossed in the towel. By the time we left Carlson all the lights were off in the building and no one was left. We were up on the second story of the atrium and were saying fuck so loud in resounded through the area. When I walked outside it was no longer dark out, but a bit dusty and the damn birds were chirping. I walked down 19th and didn’t see a car, no one was out, I drove down river road with “I want to talk about me” by Toby Keith blaring out of my sunroof and car windows! I got home and just was dead, but my brain was still going it was hard to fall asleep.

Friday- I slept till noon and the only reason I woke up was because the mailman came and woke me. I handed in stats at caribou and then worked on my schedule for next semester, which is going to kick ass. Then it was time to go out for the evening. I met Sarah and Rachel at Joe Sensors and we had dinner and watched the twin’s game and NCAA men’s gymnastics (man are some cuties on the team). We made a liquor store run and on the way Tallis called and I am sure he thought I was wasted when I was talking to him because I was being so crazy haha me being crazy what?! Sarah, Rachel and I had a blast just chilling and at about one thirty, Sarah and I decided to go on a walk around the block and found a fence (?) and took a picture with it and damn how the hell did I get my leg up that high in the picture. Then we found a huge tree in someone’s yard and went and sat against it. While we were sitting there, there were three guys across the street and one guy carrying pizza’s fell and we yelled across the street to ask if he was okay. One of his friends ran across 4th to figure out what we were saying and then the other guys came over too. The guy who fell’s hand was disgusting and bloody and we offered bandages, but he didn’t want any. I started to walk back to the house and Sarah kept talking to the guys and somehow we invited them up for drinks and some water. We weren’t even thinking that something bad could happen we just want to help these guys. Their names were Scott and Evan. Evan left earlier than Scott and it turns out that Scott’s aunt was my English teacher in high school (talk about small world). He was a person who worked at like a Wikipedia type place… I have no idea all I know is that nights with Sarah always end up crazy.

Saturday- We woke up to birds chirping and lordy was I hung over. We talked to Kelley and looked over the drunken posts we did (Johanna is now J-town just letting everyone know) oh and Zeke we asked you how do prono businesses make it in California and we expect the answer. The rest of the day I tried to study, but at one point I ended up going up to take a nap and man I passed out hard core. And that brings me to know.

Sunday- Tomorrow I need to study, but am meeting Kari at Carlson to work on a project.

This week I have two midterms, a paper, and a presentation, so it should be interesting and I think I am going to go out with the guy again. I don’t really know where that could be going, but I don’t know what I want or anything. I just wish that I could know what was going to happen and I wish that it was freaking summer because I am freezing right now!
Have a good week you all!